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Create Your Own Motivation
My motivation ebbs and flows. Real dedication to work towards contentment and health comes through on an unpredictable stream. It’s rarely strong and often is barely a trickle, but it is just enough to keep me going.
Yes, You Can Travel for Work With a Mental Illness
The most invisible and stigmatized of all health issues are mental illnesses. It’s fucked up, but disclosing a mental illness while looking for a job can impact your chances of getting hired. It might be illegal (depending on where you live), but so many people in this world are ignorant. Companies may find some other point of contention…
Memories, Parts of Self, and Cohesive Identities
Recovering repressed memories is possible. Trauma is subjectively experienced. Flashbacks are real. Depression is physical.
Will I Pass My Mental Illness to My Children?
I want children of my own, but for the past few years I have been afraid that I would pass this on to my offspring. I feared how will my body and mind handle it?
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Meditating With the Ocean in Cozumel
I’m in Cozumel. It’s my first time here. I’m lying on a towel in my black and white retro high waisted bikini–lathered in sunscreen, of course–already dry from a long swim in the ocean.
Couple sitting against a wall
Relationship Red Flags: Are You Dating an Abuser?
Trust your intuition, relationship red flags aren't easy to identify, but there are warning signs. Are you dating an abuser?
Women in a class
The Importance of Women’s Recovery Spaces
I’ve heard rumors suggesting that women’s only recovery meetings are not good because they’re just “man-bashing.” This is unequivocally false; just because something isn’t for you doesn’t mean it is against you.
crying woman
Feeling Depressed Is Different Than Being Depressed
What I'm here to say is that "feeling depressed" is a different beast than “having depression.” Depression is a diagnosable medical condition and a disorder in the DSM-V. It affects many more aspects of life than just emotional. Some symptoms can severely impact the quality of life for people with it.
I Hate Having Depression
My depression is really bad lately. I find everything meaningless. I don't even feel happy in a quiet bit of nature. I hate having depression.
Getting Back On Track
It was the longest period of time I have gone without a psychologist appointment since I first began treatment three and a half years ago. And I was getting weird, real weird.
Recovery Sayings One Day at a Time
Doodling, drawing, and coloring impromptu art is a go to method for me to stay centered. Maybe it'll work for you, too.
Depression Isn’t Weakness, But I Don’t Feel Strong
Depression isn't weakness, but I don't feel strong. Depression is clawing her way back into my consciousness. Usually she dwells in a spot hidden away, and when I put her back she stays there for a while. This time, it's like the lock is broken and she is not staying put.
Weeding Out Anxiety
I allowed a seed of anxiety to grow and take roots in other parts of my psyche. It is kind of like when a tree brings water up through its roots to nurture itself, only in a much more fucked up and non-poetic kind of way.
What is Dissociative Identity Disorder?
Dissociative identity disorder (DID), formerly called multiple personality disorder, is an extremely misunderstood condition related to serious trauma usually in childhood. It’s a controversial diagnosis, in part because of the widespread ignorance and because it frequently occurs alongside other disorders.
Mental Health Stigma Nearly Killed Me
Stigma about mental illness was encoded into my inner schema. It was so deeply embedded in me that it prevented me from even trying out possible solutions.
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Waves of Depression and Tides of Hope
Today depression came up again. Buoyed by shorter daylight filled hours, the negative number in my bank account, an unrelenting sick feeling of headache, stomach pain, and mainly my brain and body reverting to default state.
How to Listen Someone’s Trauma Story
You don't need to understand a person or their post traumatic symptoms to listen to their trauma story. Having empathy and patience does not mean you must experience what they experience. We can never know exactly what another person has lived through and how they felt in each moment.
Dissociating Is Being Stuck In My Head and Not My Body
I can’t say anything. He wants me to tell him if I’m ok and I am trapped in my head, but not in my body. I can’t move my eyes to look into his.
Am I depressed or just introverted? The truth about friendships.
Being depressed and an introvert can make it hard to tease apart what these social urges are attributed to. Social contact helps treat depression, but depression causes social isolation. Is it depression or just introversion?
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Where to Get Help for Suicide or a Mental Health Crisis
A comprehensive listing of suicide intervention and crisis support hotlines and contacts. Talk to someone via chat, text, phone, or email. Find help for yourself or someone else.
Suicidal and Not Giving Up
TW: Suicidal ideation. Raw, honest, painfully real journal journey to a dark time of suicidal thoughts. Get help at suicidepreventionlifeline.org call 1-800-273-8255
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Drinking as Self-Harm
When I can only see the world through foggy glasses, the urge to destroy myself by drinking again becomes an enticing option. Drinking can be a method of self-harm and was for me.
Resiliency, Isolation, and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Despite the impulse to isolate, it is socializing that is critical to healing a core identity and building resiliency. Recovery is not something that can occur in isolation.
Caution
The Necessity of Trigger Warnings
A trigger warning is a buffe, a necessary reprieve from the onslaught of triggers we can’t avoid — like the hellish time travel triggered by the sound of a high pitched alarm, the sudden slamming of a door, the smell of a freshly kindled fire or cracks of thunder.
Why I am airing my dirty laundry
There is a lot of value in talking about survival and moving forward in life. It is important to see what the future can hold, but when you feel alone in the thick of sorrow the only thing that you want is to feel less alone.
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The Internet Can Help Trauma Survivors— But It Can Harm Them, Too
For many battling depression and other mental illness, social networking sites are the only place they feel understood. The internet keeps the door to the outside world ajar just enough to make it possible for help to sneak through.
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How To Practice Self-Compassion in 6 Steps
Self-compassion protects us from ourselves. Another 2017 study published in School Psychology Quarterly found that self-compassion protects adolescents from inflicting self-harm because "those high on self-compassion may be more likely to use adaptive strategies" for dealing with pain and suffering.
How to Take Care of Your Mental Health While Traveling
No matter how long you're traveling for, or how you're getting there, or how far you're going, you should be taking precautionary measures to protect your health. This is especially critical if you are coping with issues of addiction and mental illness.
The Family and Medical Leave Act and Addiction Treatment
The United States does not have a great health care system to help people with substance use disorders (SUD). At every socioeconomic level, treatment is not easy to access. Stereotypes about addicts are outdated and inaccurate. Addiction and alcoholism are usually treated like moral failings or personal choice.
Donald Trump - Caricature by DonkeyHotey
Cutting Domestic Violence Programs is Dangerous
Courtesy of Donkey Hotey on Flickr Creative Commons Sharealike License The current political climate in the United States is putting victims of intimate partner violence (IPV) and the police officers who respond to their emergency calls in greater danger. President Donald Trump has repeatedly said one of his top issues is protecting police officers; the White House website even included “Standing Up For…
Walking away
Why Do People Return to Domestic Abusers?
There are many reasons people return to domestic abusers. One of which is the psychological phenomena of re-enactments and re-experiencing.
Wedding at the Beach
Why I Didn’t Try To Lose Weight For My Wedding
The author on her wedding day. Courtesy of Adrian Herrera of Victor Herrera Photographers To take care of myself in the months preceding my wedding I had to make a conscious effort to not dive into dieting. Wedding weight loss was off the list of things for me to do, or to even attempt. As…
How to Stay Sober on Vacation
Photo courtesy of Giuseppe Milo at http://www.pixael.com/en/shop Summer is here and the warmth radiating into the office window conjures up dreams of poolside lounge chairs and remote sun-kissed beaches. While you mentally plan your dream getaway and add pins to your vacation planning Pinterest board, guilty and anxious thoughts about drinking can trickle in. You…
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I Can’t Stop Picking At My Skin
Mom liked to redecorate and renovate. She decked out the main bathroom in blue and put up yellow and blue wallpaper. The dated linoleum floor was replaced with one to match the new décor. The bathtub had always been blue, now the rest of the room was too.
Advice for Traveling with Chronic Illness
Use language that makes you the authority on your health, but don’t use language that makes it sound like it is your fault or completely in your control.
Donald Trump is Just Like My Abuser
That’s when it clicked: I can’t watch Trump because he is a manipulator, and his manner of speaking is that of an emotional abuser. That’s why I was finding myself fighting panic and flashbacks when I first tried watching him debate. I was flashing back to my own experience as a victim of abuse.
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Spying, Journals, and Obsessive Habits: Three Reasons You Should Write
My first journal, circa 1996 I have kept journals since I was a kid and Harriet the Spy came into my life, I read the book and watched the movie (about a dozen times). My first journal starts with “Kristance The Spy” on July 4, 1996. Wow, seventeen years ago! All of my handwritten journals from…
Family, Fires, and Gratitude: How 1 Year After My Dad Died, He Saved My Life
Today my blog post is really personal, it’s a story that I need to tell and I haven’t known who to tell or even how to tell it, so I thought I’d start here with my readers. I hope it’s a story that can in some way inspire you to keep moving forward, no matter…
Medical Disorders: The Social Component
“It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” [Jiddu Krisnamurti] Have you ever gone to the doctors having already self-diagnosed yourself? Do you ever find yourself suggesting which medication to go on to your doctor? Maybe you are very aware of your body and take control of your own…
How Pharmaceutical Companies Sell Diseases
Photo by freestocks.org on Unsplash What is Disease Mongering? Do you have a headache? Take some Ibuprofen. Stomach upset? Take a TUMS. Are you lactose intolerant? Eat dairy and just take a lactose pill. Have you been feeling down lately and watching a lot of TV because you feel sad? There’s a pill for that!…