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Counting the Hours to Counter the Fear

By Kristance Harlow | January 3, 2019 | 1 Comment
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I drift through the days, counting. I count the hours until the next meal, class or nap. I count the days until the next trip to town, the weeks until I am home, the months until I turn twenty-one, the money in my wallet, the crackers left in my room. How much longer until something else happens?

Follow Your Bliss…Differently

By Kristance Harlow | December 12, 2018 | 1 Comment
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Sometimes one thing that frequently makes me happy will be completely joyless and painfully uninteresting on another day. Which is a hindrance for trying to create a life that allows me to follow my bliss in my work.

Self-Disparaging Thoughts

By Kristance Harlow | December 10, 2018 | 2 Comments
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These thoughts are dark. The shame is so big that it tries to stop me from talking about the thoughts, which prevents me from processing the pain.

Create Your Own Motivation

By Kristance Harlow | December 9, 2018 | 2 Comments
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My motivation ebbs and flows. Real dedication to work towards contentment and health comes through on an unpredictable stream. It’s rarely strong and often is barely a trickle, but it is just enough to keep me going.

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Yes, Things Get Worse Before Things Get Better

By Kristance Harlow | September 26, 2018 | 1 Comment
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One thing about trauma in PTSD is that it starts to show itself when you’re safe(r) than before. Our brains are working on overdrive trying to protect us and to handle all the threats and to keep us alive after the earth shattering trauma(s) we lived through. We feel scared because we know how bad…

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Meditating With the Ocean in Cozumel

By Kristance Harlow | September 25, 2018 | 0 Comments
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I’m in Cozumel. It’s my first time here. I’m lying on a towel in my black and white retro high waisted bikini–lathered in sunscreen, of course–already dry from a long swim in the ocean.

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I Just Want To Drink

By Kristance Harlow | August 23, 2018 | 0 Comments
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Now that I’m here, I really want a drink, but Alejandro won’t let me. I’m so nervous and anxious. Lost. My thoughts are circling, and I can’t stop the spiraling repetitiveness of my obsessions. I’m afraid.

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Trying To Understand Anxiety

By Kristance Harlow | August 20, 2018 | 0 Comments
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I second guess everything that I choose to do. No matter what it is. Why can’t I chill out and just do something? I’m just trying to understand anxiety.

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Feeling Depressed Is Different Than Being Depressed

By Kristance Harlow | May 24, 2018 | 1 Comment
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What I’m here to say is that “feeling depressed” is a different beast than “having depression.” Depression is a diagnosable medical condition and a disorder in the DSM-V. It affects many more aspects of life than just emotional. Some symptoms can severely impact the quality of life for people with it.

I Hate Having Depression

By Kristance Harlow | March 5, 2018 | 10 Comments
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My depression is really bad lately. I find everything meaningless. I don’t even feel happy in a quiet bit of nature. I hate having depression.

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