I’m in Cozumel. It’s my first time here. I’m lying on a towel in my black and white retro high waisted bikini–lathered in sunscreen, of course–already dry from a long swim in the ocean. There is no one around. The beach is nearly empty. The sun is strong, and I can feel it heating up my skin and infusing my body with Vitamin D.
Today hasn’t been without its challenges. There has been a lot of waiting around at a car rental office, socializing in close quarters with people who were drinking beer and vaping weed, and overwhelming heat in the back of a van with broken a/c.
It’s days like today, the days that are challenging and new, when I find a renewed appreciation for my recovery process. Today I can get annoyed but still have a good time. Being frustrated doesn’t mean being miserable. I can experience a feeling and not follow it. Balance.
I spent some time meditating in the sea. I sat on the sand, cross-legged, in the shallows of the waves. I closed my eyes and sat up straight. The waves splashed against me, pushing me to practice balance. I felt my connection to the earth and meditated on being the same as the water. I am the sand and the sand is me.
in light and love,
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