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How I Revolutionized My Writing

By Kristance Harlow | February 6, 2018 | 0 Comments
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I pull out my notebook and everyone is awestruck at how I can write on regular paper with a non-electric pen and magically upload it to my phone and with a click I can turn my handwriting into editable text.

Depression Isn’t Weakness, But I Don’t Feel Strong

By Kristance Harlow | January 23, 2018 | 3 Comments
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Depression isn’t weakness, but I don’t feel strong. Depression is clawing her way back into my consciousness. Usually she dwells in a spot hidden away, and when I put her back she stays there for a while. This time, it’s like the lock is broken and she is not staying put.

Weeding Out Anxiety

By Kristance Harlow | January 22, 2018 | 4 Comments
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I allowed a seed of anxiety to grow and take roots in other parts of my psyche. It is kind of like when a tree brings water up through its roots to nurture itself, only in a much more fucked up and non-poetic kind of way.

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Waves of Depression and Tides of Hope

By Kristance Harlow | January 13, 2018 | 1 Comment
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Today depression came up again. Buoyed by shorter daylight filled hours, the negative number in my bank account, an unrelenting sick feeling of headache, stomach pain, and mainly my brain and body reverting to default state.

What is this Feeling? Fear of Contentment?

By Kristance Harlow | January 6, 2018 | 0 Comments
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I still don’t like speaking of it, of this fear, I don’t want people to become intrusive about me. I don’t want the worry of people who don’t understand because they’ve never felt this way.

Dissociating Is Being Stuck In My Head and Not My Body

By Kristance Harlow | January 5, 2018 | 0 Comments
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I can’t say anything. He wants me to tell him if I’m ok and I am trapped in my head, but not in my body. I can’t move my eyes to look into his.

A Child Says Hello

By Kristance Harlow | December 30, 2017 | 2 Comments
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As they walked away the baby girl watched me and smiled and then started giggling with joy. As if our encounter had tickled her as much as it did me.

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Eating Obsessions and Body Negativity

By Kristance Harlow | December 29, 2017 | 0 Comments
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I think I’m emotionally eating. I really need to not do that. I have to be really careful with addictions. I could very easily become an alcoholic I think. I need to be so careful to never do that.

Suicidal and Not Giving Up

By Kristance Harlow | December 27, 2017 | 0 Comments
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TW: Suicidal ideation. Raw, honest, painfully real journal journey to a dark time of suicidal thoughts. Get help at suicidepreventionlifeline.org call 1-800-273-8255

Neon sign: You are here

Sobriety Can Be Scary

By Kristance Harlow | December 22, 2017 | 1 Comment
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Nothing negative is happening. I mean, no big things are occurring that I should feel threatened about. This anxiety and fear is coming from someplace else. I can’t sleep. I wake up every hour and am having vivid intense dreams and nightmares. What is wrong? It isn’t easy to deal with stresses again without my…

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