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Eating Obsessions and Body Negativity

By Kristance Harlow | December 29, 2017 | 0 Comments
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I think I’m emotionally eating. I really need to not do that. I have to be really careful with addictions. I could very easily become an alcoholic I think. I need to be so careful to never do that.

Suicidal and Not Giving Up

By Kristance Harlow | December 27, 2017 | 0 Comments
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TW: Suicidal ideation. Raw, honest, painfully real journal journey to a dark time of suicidal thoughts. Get help at suicidepreventionlifeline.org call 1-800-273-8255

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Sobriety Can Be Scary

By Kristance Harlow | December 22, 2017 | 1 Comment
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Nothing negative is happening. I mean, no big things are occurring that I should feel threatened about. This anxiety and fear is coming from someplace else. I can’t sleep. I wake up every hour and am having vivid intense dreams and nightmares. What is wrong? It isn’t easy to deal with stresses again without my…

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Learning To Be Honest

By Kristance Harlow | December 19, 2017 | 1 Comment
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Lying so often feels like the easy way out, but I’ve been learning the hard way that honesty is the only way to face demons and beat them. To learn from the shit in life and to handle the pain of the world, to see the good things and not just the bad.

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I Woke Up Happy, Now I Am Not

By Kristance Harlow | December 18, 2017 | 1 Comment
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Standing on the platform, I try to ignore the thoughts about what I look like and focus on something else. Anything else. At least I know that the reality is, I don’t know these people and they don’t care about me.

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Contemplating the Unspeakable

By Kristance Harlow | December 12, 2017 | 2 Comments
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I hate admitting this, it’s unspeakable, and writing it down makes it even more real. I’ve been thinking about killing myself a lot. If I didn’t know the horrific trauma that death causes on the people who love the dead person, I think I’d have done it already.

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You Are Worth Life, Even If You Want to Give Up

By Kristance Harlow | November 17, 2017 | 3 Comments
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If you are hopeless, want to give up, or are contemplating suicide. Please take a minute to read this and call someone. You aren’t alone. You don’t have to go through this feeling alone. You are stronger than you know and more incredible than you believe.

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Is This Depression?

By Kristance Harlow | November 3, 2017 | 0 Comments
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Every day I struggle to get up and go to class. I find no meaning in anything I do and I go to a counselor here on campus, but I still feel the same.

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Alcoholic and Spiraling Towards Bottom

By Kristance Harlow | October 31, 2017 | 0 Comments
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Angry at myself. I’ve been drinking every single day for like a week. I know why I’m doing it. Without something to confuse my sense, I don’t have to deal with this internal struggle.

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How Journaling Has Helped Me Heal

By Kristance Harlow | August 27, 2017 | 0 Comments
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From a young age, I learned that writing about my pain was like talking to a friend. My journal has traveled as far and wide as I have.

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