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Am I Scared or Is It Grief? – Uncovering the Sad Feeling

By Kristance Harlow | June 18, 2022 |
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I used to feel this sad and heavy pain in my gut all the time. At times I could name it, pinpoint where the sad feeling started. Most of the time it just felt bad, at best a sign that something was off. Maybe a warning to tell me a memory was trying to be processed,…

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Depression Is My Monster

By Kristance Harlow | December 1, 2019 |
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Depression is growing bigger, having eaten Alice’s fantasies. It’s the demon in Spirited Away. A monster glutinous for pain.

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I Deserve Respect

By Kristance Harlow | November 30, 2019 |
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The truth is: You can probably make me feel bad. You can probably succeed in making me cry or have an anxiety attack. I might be incapacitated by it. But I’ll pull through, I always do.

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Sometimes I Feel Ashamed of My Mental Health

By Kristance Harlow | November 29, 2019 |
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I think I should be different by now. That I should be better by now. And I don’t want to reveal the extent of my struggle because I feel ashamed. I’m embarrassed.

Nightmares on Repeat

By Kristance Harlow | January 9, 2019 |
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My dream recall is vivid and detailed. For as long as I can remember, I’ve had nightmares so intense that they carry over into my waking life.

Counting the Hours to Counter the Fear

By Kristance Harlow | January 3, 2019 |
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I drift through the days, counting. I count the hours until the next meal, class or nap. I count the days until the next trip to town, the weeks until I am home, the months until I turn twenty-one, the money in my wallet, the crackers left in my room. How much longer until something else happens?

Dangerous Words and the Internet

By Kristance Harlow | December 28, 2018 |
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If I was home without a parent, I knew to answer the phone and say mom is in the shower or that dad is mowing the lawn. I knew to not open the door if anyone came knocking. I didn’t know I needed the same cautious self-protection when I logged on.

Christmas in Summer

By Kristance Harlow | December 21, 2018 |
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In Argentina, and I’m sure many other places, Christmas festivities are in full swing on Christmas Eve. A moment of Christmas traditions.

Argentine Resort – Posada Itaca

By Kristance Harlow | December 18, 2018 | Comments Off on Argentine Resort – Posada Itaca
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The sun soaks through the curtains, slowly flooding the room with soft morning light. You are gently roused from a truly restful sleep that was uninterrupted by the sounds of impatient traffic or insomniac neighbors. Opening your eyes, you look up at the natural wooden beams and whitewashed ceiling. You slip out of bed and…

Follow Your Bliss…Differently

By Kristance Harlow | December 12, 2018 |
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Sometimes one thing that frequently makes me happy will be completely joyless and painfully uninteresting on another day. Which is a hindrance for trying to create a life that allows me to follow my bliss in my work.

If you or someone you know is in immediate danger, call your local emergency number. The numbers listed here are the commonly used numbers for the stated region, the numbers can vary greatly depending on where you live. If you don't know your country's equivalent to 911, this wiki page and The Lifeline Foundation have comprehensive listings.

Americas

911

The Americas

Europe

112

Europe

Africa

112 & 999

Africa

Asia

112, 999, 110

Asia

Oceania

112, 911, 999, 111, & 000

Oceania

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